I'm tired.

It's like some bad film on replay, watching it half-heartedly. Unlike the first few times when you learn something new, you now know it all and you couldn't care less about what lies ahead - the anticipation's gone. I'm tired of the same old thoughts running back and forth like as if I have nothing better to occupy my mind with. It's so difficult to get on with everything! I'm fine though, really.

The group meeting today was no surprise, I did the talking, I did the thinking - thank god this one's not assessed. By the time the real thing comes I will hate my group even more. I don't mind chipping in more than the rest but if you'd rather be home cuddled up in your duvet, so would I.

I miss the good old days where things were so simple. High school was definitely one of them simpler times. I had the time to sit back, watch Heroes and munch on curly fries downing a glass of coke - and that's really nice. I wouldn't want to fatten myself any further but it's just one of those little things that it's nice to have time to do. I do have seminar work for tomorrow which I couldn't be bothered to even find out what it is, but that's not really something I'm bothered with at the moment.

What to do if you want something really badly but can't have it?