Darn it!

Why is it that I just don't seem to want to do anything. It's only when the deadline's looming in that I feel the heat and force myself to push through my limit and run on adrenaline and caffeine (as opposed to peaceful night's sleep). AT LEAST I finished 3 internship applications. Goldman's one was the day before but that I didn't have much choice, tests and essays were popping up like mushroom during the week so it's not like as if I had the time. I sent off Barclays yesterday and Deutsche Bank today - well ahead of the deadline, like weeks...but given that it's opened since September that doesn't quite cut in. In my defense (why am I talking to myself?), I was planning for a work-free holiday really...

There's Merrill Lynch left if I'm bothered, but their application is oh so long and their deadline is in 4 days so forget that. Morgan Stanley I'll attend to if I had the time. Same with Credit Suisse, and maybe even UBS. JPMorgan doesn't have private wealth and HSBC's closed - blah. I shouldn't even be doing them because my GMAT's about to piss out and die. I really need to be doing that.

I really need to get my references. I really need to fill my applications. I need to do my uni work (which is shitloads). I AM *THIS* CLOSE TO HAVING A SHUTDOWN.